I want to be love for my own personality rather then for something which goes again my conscious.

The people who knows you lesser then those who knew you longer always have something more to say. Thoughts aren't always meant to be kept to yourself but to be shared so that people can understand you better, to compromise. I'm upset. Funny, isn't it?

Would be attending school tomorrow. Wth? I really hope to be able to get transferred to another school really quickly. Bowen is freaking far from home and moreover the teachers and the rules there suck! I don't know who I am any more.

J. I am jealous of you. Oh Come on, that's absolute crap right? But somehow I just feel weird. It's hilariously irritating that we look alike. I just don't like it. And I don't like the way I get treated so nicely just because we're look alike's. Can't you guys distinguish the difference between us? It is just plain stupid that I'm crapping about you on my blog but somehow even if I told somebody about this, no one would understand.

B. It's been such a long time since we've been really close, and what you said shook that little portion of my heart. It was lucky enough that I didn't get all stuffed up and soft all over again, for you. Once bitten twice shy, yeah? Can't be so naive any more. Reality sucks!

R. It's so nice of you wanting to be there for me and stuffs, and I really do want to reciprocate your feelings. But it would just give you the wrong idea, and that's why I asked you not to treat me so good. Cause I'm afraid that one day, you'll just be another one to disappear.

Y. I don't like the way A treats you. It really does irks me in some way or another. You've given him another chance and I hope that it would be the last time that he hurts you. Don't like nor wanna see you feeling pathetic all over again.

F. Really hope that things between the both of your would end up to be something magical. Though the both of you are fickle-minded I just hope that you guys would think things through and end up having a positive outcome.

MY. You yourself know that I have done stuffs which are more then sacrificial. I do them just because I want something in return. I want you. Do you know that? Let's assume that you do, I'm not blaming you for having that injury. And at the same time I'm not blaming myself for not being an "Not-so-understanding-Girlfriend". I've had my reasons for saying so. When you're well enough I really want to have a good talk with you. We've got to sort things out, and I can't do it alone. I expected much more, but I've got so much lesser in return. I just hope that you'll get well soon.

Happy 11 months to Ming Yi and I! I can't wait for him to be out man! Baby I don't know what you've heard about me inside but I want you to know that I love you.....

I fell sick yesterday and until now I am still not feeling okay. I feel like going out but....I don't know..Guess I am not being/thinking rational. Cold-tired-giddy-lonely-feverish-sad. I wish baby was here to take care of me, I just realise that when I will myself not to think of him time would pass much faster. He is left with 25 days while I am left with 6 days. Ah. The thought of it really... makes me smile.

Its been years since I posted, things are getting really crazy.

What's with girls going around thinking that piercings are really cool and stuff.

I've totally been rotting at home the whole day and I have came to a conclusion.

If I do not have plans for today, i'll just go out alone. I don't need to stay at home feeling a little dejected that no one asked me out. I'm just going to write whatever comes to my mind as.....NO FREAKING WAY IS ANYBODY GOING TO READ WHAT I'VE WRITTEN. Good job Tabby.

I am going to enjoy my days outside, though I know that it wouldn't be much fun. But I am still going to go ahead with heading down to town alone. Cause that is Tabby and that is the way I am.

Heyho heyho to my precious Baby!
Yeah, I'll post our pictures when we both discharge okay. I don't want to get into trouble again because of such things, its so stupid. Grrr. Baby..I miss you (:
At panjang's mac now studying with yanting and one of her friends, wow.
I can't believe i'm like doing that! :D Quite proud of myself eh.
Baby, remember our plan yeah. The first week you're coming out we'll go to the beach, then we'll go to the zoo and then shopping! hahas, Its been about more then a month since i've been really able to be together with you. Quickly come out alrights, its good that you're making an effort to be good. I'll tell you anything thats bothering me, don't worry. Wouldn't keep it from you yeah, and i'll do my best to love you!

Baby,i won't compare you with others girls,i won't look down on you and i just loved you for who you are.

I want to takecare of you too,i want to be the one to make you smiles too, but sometimes i just failed to do it. I'm sorry. i just feel so bad baby. I know you changes mood often,but why? is it because of me?.. though sometimes i'm stress about where to take you to,but as long as you're with me,i happy le.

Baby,I'll not give up on you, nothing's gonna change my love for you.

I will not leave you alone to suffer,when you're upset or down.I'd rather have bad times with you,than good times with someone else.i'd rather be beside you in a storm,than safe and warm by myself,i'd rather have hard times together,than to have it easy apart. remember this?

I want to lend you my shoulder,when you cry(but i don't wish to see that happening) but why would you cry because of me? it hurts to see you cry you know..i want to be the one to make you smiles always. I want to be there for you,hugging you tightly with my arms,telling you that everything is fine when you needs me.

I would also like to share things with you if there is anything that bothers me. but you must too. I'll be honest to you,and i hope you will too. I belive you, i trust you. Sometimes don't because of
the things i've said makes you think that i don't believe or trust you.

I won't be thinking that you're asking too much from me, because i'll not think that way. just tell me if you've anything to say. I promise to love you no matter what.

i miss you~

Hahas! Baby, you're damn sure your not gonna make me regret waiting for you yeah!!!! :D

I just Love your assurances man! Thank you and I hope that its true alrights.

(Glad that my baby knows that it indeed is so difficult without him) hee..I miss you so much too baby, don't apologise its okay. I'll wait for you to come out,

and I'll take your promise to heart okay!

I love you, Hope that everything'll be fine, sweetest thing (:

I hope that you won't compare me to girls who may have brighter smiles.

I hope that you will make me smile, take care of me if I get sick, and be trustworthy.

I hope that you will remember that my mood changes all the time.

Please know that when I am sad or down, I want you to coax me. I would not push you away.

I'm sure that you'll be the one to make me laugh.

Please know that when we have plans to go out together, don't stress about where to take me, as what is important is that I'll be with you.

If I cry, please know it isn't because of you, just hold me close, and I'll heal quickly.
And, if it is because of you, I'll heal just the same.

Please tell me If anything bothers you, or If something just doesn't seem right. I would like you to be honest with me. And again, If I have a bad day, I hope you will shower me with confidence and smiles.

I hope that you won't think that I'm asking for too much of you. I hope you understand that I'm a bit nervous.

Every relationship is a new game of cards, and...well I've never been good at cards.

But I will try my best to be kind and love you dearly for all that you are, without expecting too much from you. Thank you for listening, this is all I ask for.

Baby, you trusted me, let me grow and listened to what I had to say without judgement-whether it was something you wanted to hear or not.

Thank you, I love you.

hehes,tabby's xiaoming is here to help her blog! i'll say hello to my baby,when she sees tis. hmmm, i miss you alot!! it have been quiite a long time since i get to be with you le. stupid issues in Gh,getting myself confined inside agaain and again.. sorry. you waited for me whenever i get cut always,i understand its difficult without me (; but,i promise you,you will not regret waiting and being together with me. duibuqi..still don't know when i'll be coming out.
b*by,Thanks for the every single thing you've done for me baby. i promise you i will change =P

You're my sunshine,being together with you really brighten up my days (:

Met Nic, Girlfriend and their school-mates on saturday before church. They really are a fun bunch of people, (:

I can't wait to see you, to be with you. I miss you so. Baby.

I'm sick and I can't help but feel sorry for myself. Pathetic right. Guess I'm pms-ing.

I want longer homeleave, the more I'm outside, I'm able to get in touch with my former self and that assures me alot.

Argh~ My head hurts, and I'm feeling really tired. Would be going back to gh in a few hours when daddy's back home. Its going to be real lonely as Yanting's on extended and Ta's going for her study-leave in a months time. But at least I've got Hm, Pat, Th?

Should be having YOG next week. Wonder what its like.

Am I so inferior when i'm with you? Sometimes i just want to know why. But no matter what you'll still be important to me.

Babyluv, you're inside the t.o.r once again. I miss you, thinking of what you're doing and how you're feeling.

I'll be meeting Nic and girlfriend at cine, have to be at church at 5. Hope I'll reach in time.

My arms feel so sore, thanks to Creston and our dumb plan.

So hilarious. Think I totally embarrassed myself.

I have got so many things on my mind right now, I just want to be happy for a moment without worries. But life is like that, It doesn't go the way I want it to go. Thats why I'll just have to learn to live with it.

Stomach cramp~

My gienpeng picture, at cine(:



Hello Hello to those who are reading. Schools starting tomorrow and i'll have to sleep real early, if not i wouldn't be able to wake up in time. Going to attend school from home, yeah! GRADUATION! hahas, can't wait for even longer homeleave. But anyway, its meaningless if baby isn't coming out. His really getting into alot of trouble nowadays. Fresh case. I really hope that things would be settled soon and that the police would not charge him. But I'm really elated that he accepted Christ, I'm so proud of him being able to do that. He promised to change, asked me to give him time. Do hope that he'll do his best not to get into trouble anymore. Its so worrying.
Baby, if you're reading this now, I just want to say that I have got trust in you, don't disappoint your parents, the people who are concern and have been praying for you. Including me. Alrights? Do your best, ok? I love you, and I'll be here to support you. No matter what happens. (:

Went to Muthu's chalet today, kio his food! Hahas So not bad eh. His only 16 this year, can you believe it. Its good that I went as I have not seen him for a super long time.

I'm going to be positive, I'm going to be Happy-tabby once again.

Baby's inside t.o.r now and wouldn't be able to attend the camp later. I'll be waiting for him, I miss him.

Yanting's sick, hope she gets well soon. If she's going to the doctor I'll be accompanying her.

Tired, sleeping soon. Nights then.

12 days to our 6th month, Baby your all I want.

Just a kiss would do~

Its really been such a long time since I've posted something, was bored so I just decided to update without people knowing. Its nice to know that some people would really take the time to read my blog and best of all, the way I feel. Appreciative eh, but I don't want to get into trouble for expressing myself. It'll just be meaningless for me to continue writing. As for now I just feel like telling the "WHOLE WORLD" that I'm going to be bored to death. Sad Tabby, Sad Mezxzx~ Oh my, guess I'm really going to go bonkers? Its late but I can't seem to fall asleep, I feel like such a paranoid bitch. Sometimes I just want to tell you that I do not like you, but in another way I'll just keep turning soft hearted, repeatedly. I have to emphasize the word, weak. That is totally what I am. I wasn't who I was last time. Now I've not only been degrading myself, I even excepted the fact that I'm as bad as those people whom I despised. I want to be myself again. I want to be me, but I can't seem to get back the usual me. I want to know what I am going to do later on in life, I want to be looked up to in modern society, I want to be successful. Lastly I want to Love and be Loved. I don't want to live in a place where I would always be broken down by worries. I want to live a carefree life.

This is all Tabitha wants, and this is what i hope to achieve.

You know what I mean, you know how I feel. Lmy, I love you.

supposedly was supposed to say....

HAPPY 3RD MONTH TO XIAOMING AND I~

But it was meaningless without him!

Never mind, we still do have alot of time.

I luvvvvvvvvvvvv you, lmy (:

Garnell Creston Ryan;

I'm so sorry if I didn't really get what you were trying to imply about G, but sometimes I feel that its weird how you react towards her or to anything that concerns about her. My point is that if she dosen't reciprocate your feelings then why get so moodless over her. You yourself know that I don't like seeing you that way, you're my bestfriend and somehow I cannot do anything about it. Don't always bring yourself down over her, you may not know that after all, she may not be worth it. But I guess, to you, she's really that important and thats why you don't really hear me crapping much about her anymore. I support your decision in you wanting her, but if its gonna bring you down then i'm going to have to interfere.

Isn't that what friends are for?~